Emo

gosh ! Today being so so so so emo ! What happen to me ? I really don't know what's going on to me. Feeling so lost recently and today the worst ! I found nothing connected with me all around me. I'm becoming a out group people all the way ! I used to be a cool people, I hate fake smiling , I hate all of this ! But now ? Why am I acting like this !!!!! Son of bitch !

Everything around me now is just a mistake! Everything just goes seems wrong. Even now I'm blogging , I'm using English instead of Chinese !!! And I still think of should I write something like this ? Should I ?

But why would I need to pretend nothing happen and keep it for myself ? I don't deserve it ! I forget again why am I created this blog .. As a stage for me to share my story , my mood , my everything. I want to cry out as loud as I can , as I thought I can tonight but the most sad thing is I'm running out of tear !! How sad am I ?

And now I found out how stupid am I now facing a stupid com and typing out all of these.

Being a mature people , a nice people have to pay out a lot a lot.

Keep forcing myself to drink more and more water,as a Aquarius I can't be empty. But somehow,I'm still feeling exhausted in and out of my body .

I'm a failure~

Best Friend

How you guys define a best friend?

Some conversation happened between me and my friend and make me THINK really deeply about how to define a best friend.

Me: " Hey.. Are they couple ? "

( Well.. is kinda boring in the class so I need gossip to cheer up myself )

Friend A : " NONONO ! The aren't. They are just best friend. yea.. just best friend. ( 3 seconds later ) Well.. Maybe a little little of over the best friend line."

Me: " Ou.. Then how you define as best friend ? How are they over the line ? For example ? "

Friend A : " Alright.. They....... A always go to pick up B, every morning and going to breakfast or having meal together. So... "

Me : " OU !! So that's how you define a best friend. "

Then I gonna have dozen of best friend. ( eyes rolling )

Well.. I really a bit of pissed off about this answer. It is not what I expected.

Anyone of you having a GOOD answer ?